Update VI

Okay, the dream really messed me up. But so did this: on my way to work I suddenly remembered seeing the song "White Flag" on Greg's MySpace page a week or so ago. My heart sank, but it didn't dawn on me why. I was going to ask him why he put it up, but I never got around to it. Now I realize the meaning of it... he put it up because it reflected how he hadn't given up on his love for Aaron.

And so began my tearful hour plus commute to work. I decided to go all out and play my playlist of sad songs. It was pretty pathetic. I cried.

"Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you
My soul cries
Heaving heart is full of pain
All of the aching" -- "Kissing You"

"I tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete" -- "Incomplete"

"Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I'm loving you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time" -- "Come What May"

"Make believing we're together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside I turn to water
Like a teardrop in your palm" -- "It Must Have Been Love"

The one I couldn't get through was a music score called "...And Then I Kissed Him" which kinda had special meaning for Greg and me.