a peek inside my brain (careful kids, this might get scary!)

some random thoughts that ran through my head today...

it's 6:53... i can sleep a little longer...

it's 7:01... just a little longer...

holy crap, it's 7:20!

i love peanut butter and jelly...

it's such a pretty day. i love california.

stupid traffic! i hate california.

laffy taffy... girl, shake that laffy taffy... i hate this song.

smallville was sooo good last night. death, drama... it was epic! must talk to coworker jessica about it.



these teddy grams are gross. and yet... i can't stop eating them.

petros just described one of our characters as a "classy ho." mental note: i want to make that part of my everyday vocabulary.

that is so wrong! but funny. (as a coworker played me an audio tape of his ex-roommate moaning during sex with someone -- he left a tape recorder in the room to document the hook up!)

oh my god, it's so cold and windy! (as a i walked jacketless to lunch)

jake gyllenhaal's blue eyes are hypnotic. even more so set against oprah's lovely new set.

nate really did look like a kitten when he pretended to lick his scab. i hope he does it again, that's some funny stuff.

if people catch me surfing the net looking at jeremy bloom's website, they are going to think i'm a perv. oh, well.

this song makes me cry.

if i die today, that'll suck.

this is a pretty dumb blog. i should end this right about now...

the next big thing

i know soaps aren't known for having great actors, but it's been my theory that 1/3 of soap actors are bad, 1/3 are decent and 1/3 are very talented. lately many soap actors have moved on to success in primetime and movies, such as eva longoria, jesse metcalfe, jensen ackles, josh duhmel, and more recently brandon routh (superman). here's my list of current soap stars who i think could really make it big elsewhere, followed by a list of hot-looking soap guys and girls whose talents i'm not completely sold on -- yet -- but hey... who knows?

All My Children
Alicia Minshew (Kendall)
Alexa Havins (Babe)

As the World Turns
Terri Colombino (Katie)
Mark Collier (Mike)

Grayson McCouch (Dusty)
Jesse Sofer (Will)
Maura West (Carly)

Days of Our Lives
Arianne Zuker (Nicole)

General Hospital
Nancy Lee Grahn (Alexis)
Natalia Livingston (Emily)

Guiding Light
Tom Pelphrey (Jonathon)
Rob Bogue (Mallet)
Crystal Chappell (Olivia)
GinaTognoni (Dinah)

One Life to Live
Bree Williamson (Jessica)
Melissa Archer (Natalie)

Passions
Brook Kerr (Whitney)
Emily Harper (Fancy)
Heidi Mueller (Kay)

The Young and the Restless
Michelle Stafford (Phyllis)

CUTE GUYS & GIRLS WHO MAY OR MAY NOT BE GOOD ACTORS
Justin Bruening (Jamie, AMC)
John Driscoll (Coop, GL)

Julie Marie Berman (Lulu, GH)
David Fumero (Christian, OLTL)

Matthew Metzger (Duke, OLTL)
Aiden Turner (Aiden, AMC)
Jeff Branson (Jonathon, AMC)
Chrishell Strause (Amanda, AMC)
Darin Brooks (Max, DAYS)
Thad Luckinbill (JT, Y&R)
Scott Bailey (Sandy, GL)
Greg Vaughn (Lucky, GH)

RECENTLY LEFT SOAPS... WAITING ANY MINUTE FOR THEIR BIG BREAK
Rebecca Budig (ex Greenlee, AMC)
Peyton List (ex Lucy, ATWT)
Chris Beetem (ex Jordan, ATWT)
Justin Hartley (ex Fox, PASS) **Update: just landed lead role of Aquaman for next fall
Eric Winter (ex Rex, DAYS)
Nadia Bjorlin (ex Chloe, DAYS)
Tamara Braun (ex Carly, GH)

dirty little secrets

* office supply stores turn me on

* i used to stare at clocks if it was at the 13 minute mark. i had to keep staring until it turned 14 or i was convinced i'd have bad luck. this was inconvenient while driving.

* when i was little, i used to put on these two silver bracelets and pretend i was wonder woman. my brother likes to remind me.



* in high school, we had a holocaust survivor come and talk about his horrific experience. i was sitting in the front row... and i kept nodding off! he was really monotonous and i hadn't had much sleep... :(

* i like guys with stubble.

* i am very afraid of spiders.

* i used to have recurring dreams about an evil easter bunny.

my day

Today was okay, but I was stabbed in the gut by some guy named Twist. It was outside of NBC. He said he was protesting the portrayal of Nigerian drug-smuggling priests on television. He was also upset by Master P's refusal to wear appropriate shoes on "Dancing with the Stars." I tried to tell him I had nothing to do with any of those things and that he had the wrong network, but it's hard when blood is gushing out of your side.

Luckily, NBC is right down the street from St. Joseph's, so I ran there and underwent surgery. During the surgery, I started walking towards a white light... I think I saw Nell Carter, wielding a vacuum, coming toward me, so I got scared and ran back the other way.

After I was released from the hospital, there was a press conference. The police had just caught Twist and I was there to publicly thank the Burbank men in blue for bringing Twist to justice. I was asked if I had anything to say to my attacker, so I turned to Twist and said, "Did I disappoint you? Or leave a bad taste in your mouth? You act like you never had love and you want me to go without. Well it's... too late, tonight, to drag the past out into the light. We're one, but we're not the same. We get to carry each other, carry each other. One..."

At which point, Twist interjected with, "Actually, I wanted to..." but I silenced him by placing a stern hand on his shoulder and gently scolded, "Not until the big finish, my friend." Two spotlights popped on behind me (backlighting is always more flattering) and I gripped the sides of the podium. "Have you come here for forgiveness? Have you come to raise the dead? Have you come here to play Jesus to the lepers in your head? Did I ask too much? More than a lot? You gave me nothing, now it's all I got. We're one, but we're not the same. Well, we hurt each other, then we do it again. You say, love is a temple, love is a higher law. Love is a temple, love is the higher law. You ask me to enter, but then you make me crawl and I can't be holding on to what you got, when all you got is hurt. One love. One blood. One life. You got to do what you should."

After the thunderous applause died down, I went to give Twist a hug of forgiveness. And then the sonofabitch stabbed me again.